I'm going to ask you a question, and I want you to be honest. I will explain more later, but I really need to know:
What motivates you in life?
What desires influence the decisions you make--not what circumstances, such as "I only scored 400 on my SAT's so I couldn't go to Princeton". If you could make all of your life choices solely based on your desires, what would you be doing right now, and what desire(s) would have led you to this point?
If you don't want to answer, that's fine.